I know it’s been very quite around here lately.. but I really didn’t feel like being able to blog or do anything at all. The last couple of months have been the hardest for me and even getting up and getting dressed felt nearly impossible to master.Day after day I just lived for the day and nothing seemed to make any sense to me anymore. I started to question everything; I’ve lost faith; I’ve lost myself.. and my path seemed to lead nowhere. At least, that’s what I thought. After being in a relationship for 8 years and now being alone I felt like I couldn’t manage all of this. I didn’t know how. Everytime, when I tried to get up and keep going it felt like something graped my hand and smashed me to the ground again. It seemed like a battle I couldn’t win..
After a certain time I’ve reached the lowest point of my life, a point of self-destruction, and I realized that this is not where I want to be anymore. I didn’t want to be the person that I was starting to become. Of course I knew my life wouldn’t change in a minute and I wouldn’t feel better just like that.. but I knew – realizing that I am where I shouldn’t be was the first step of change.
I’ve told you guys in my video (that I’ve linked below) that I met a very sweet person on Instagram. She was saying great things to me and helped me a lot without even knowing.. For some reason – and I’ve never had that feeling before – I felt some sort of connection to a total stranger.. And I’m not talking about that feeling you have when someone’s saying nice things to you on the internet and you get along very well with that person. I’m talking about that feeling you get when you feel like you’ve known that person forever even though you’ve never met or talked before! I know this is very rare so most of you won’t understand.. I didn’t either. But that feeling didn’t let go and instead of ignoring it, I decided to listen and to cut a long story short, I ended up visiting this girl in London!
In the end, it was not just a short trip to London and I’m not gonna say it changed my life. But it sure changed a part of me and that has a huge impact on my life. This experience made me get out of my comfort zone and try something new, something that even scared me. It changed my way of thinking and taught me to look from different perspectives at things. And I couldn’t be more grateful for this gift. At this point I would like to say Thank you, Nisa. You are God’s answer.
So. I visited Nisa in London. And of course we took some #ootd shots! 😉
Lots of Love,
Photos by: Nisa
WHAT I WEAR:
Sweater: Christian Berg
Bag: Ilex London